Not long after arriving, the news that we were expecting our first child was both exciting and nerve-wracking. I was grieving the loss of my husband as his face softened, his breasts developed and his stubble disappeared. But it does have a serious affect on me, it’s very difficult to feel like I have any choice in things when wearing feminine color bikini panties. The training involves making the submissive – who often may be shy and embarrassed – overcome those emotions, shifting their mindset so that they instinctively act more provocatively and uninhibitedly. Even so I had always dismissed my secret desires as little more than an illusion I could never have.

I leaned on a broad support system of people and activities: a spiritual guide, a life coach, wonderful friends, meditation and plenty of exercise and travel.I noticed a lot of posts on this site about women getting their men into female wear and taking control of them so thought why not, I started by getting him some panties for his birthday and he did like them, when he was wearing them a lot I got the bras they were a bit harder to have him wear out but I praised him all the time and he wanted to please, next a couple of frilly nighties for evening wear, I also had him in pantyhose, I used to give him a surprise blow job explaining it was because he was such a good boy and looked so sexy in his female underwear, eventually he would wear anything for me and he became totally feminized at home my sissy slave, wigs, make up the whole lot, I love him heaps and he loves what he is doing too, it is our little secret and we still have great vaginal and anal sex.

In 2009, in response to yet another bout of David's depression, I said, "I don't think another therapist or a different antidepressant will work. I reluctantly agreed, recognizing the comfortable support the bra offered, however, as the weeks continued I became more and more self-conscious about my breast growth and less inclined to go out.Many males don’t realise they need to be feminised and there are women who don’t yet see they need to control their male partner. With my redundancy package, we didn’t really have any money worries and were able to prepare comfortably for the new arrival. Once he was in the routine I introduced strappy high heels for him to wear around the house then gradually introduced him to skirts. Even though the cream I had been applying on my breast area had denuded my chest of hair, there was still some around my belly, so I shaved that as well.